Tough days ahead

I went to purchase Mother's Day cards today and lost it. I started bawling in the middle of Rite Aid. The pain in my heart was excruciating and yet it pales in comparison to what my brother or sil's mom must be feeling. I remember this time last year buying her a mom to be card and spending the day before with her in SD. It was such a time of excitement and for the life of me I don't know how we got here.